From Captivity to Liberation

A lot of changes since I have dropped a post on this blog, and to be honest most of the posts here are from many years ago, and migrated here from long-lost sites and blogger archives. In a lot of cases I would consider myself almost a different person as to the one that wrote some of this content. It seems strange to me how when I read some of my old posts they sound like a stranger wrote them, or there is little or no personal connection to the content. So that being saisd the key motivator for me in writing this is to tell you all about all the great things I will be doing or intend to do from this day forth. I will not do that. It’s a trap I usually fall into, but I am not going to do it anymore.

I have completely rebuilt this site as of today. I consider it 98% completed with exception to a couple of gallery sections that I will add at a later date. I’ve burned myself out on the work of rebuilding and organizing content, and now I am longing for a change and getting back into generating NEW content and art again. I have also invested time and energy into developing a well rounded substack. This alslo too quite a bit of time (but I think it’s worth it) and I am not sure how I will navigate both this blog and the substack newsletter workflow. I guess I will find out. I imagine some of the content will show up on both platforms for a bit until i get tired of posting here. BIG changes in life make for new and exciting opportunities and growth. I feel like I am on the cusp of one of those changes. I have spent the last 5 years developing my books, art, and comics and honing my skills to a point that now I feel ready to engage more with the outside world and really share and get my work “out there”. So here I am, and here we go. I have delayed, procrastinated, and sand-bagged long enough. I feel ready. But I am still terrified - but in an excited way. I don’t fear rejection or being ignored. I think I fear the possible outcome of success or change - it’s hard to articulate, and I have to maybe look into it on a more deeper level. ill start by trying to document and share my feelings more on this as things continue to roll out. I feel liberated. I feel like I have finally gotten to a place where I am out of my own way. But i still see a steep dive into the unknown, like I am pushing off a ski hill for the very first time. I’ve bgeen here before and by now I know it’s a good thing. I’m ready for it.